Teardrops on my Keyboard

Away from home for so long

Every minute I thought of the day

That I would return home

To see all of my friends

My family

I want to go home. . .

Living in hell

For so long

And people kept me there

To suffer

To hate myself even more

I hate myself so much. . .

A year and a half passes by

I get to go home

I hit up all of my “friends”

Friends. . .

Why don’t you call back?

Friends? ? ?

Back to my family

Family. . .

You’ve changed

Is this good

Or is this bad?

What’s going on?

I don’t know what to do

I don’t want to go back

I don’t want to stay

I want my friends

I want my family

Am I selfish?

So many photos of my friends

Facebook shows them smiling

I want to smile

I want to be in there photos

I want my old life back

My old life

I say I don’t want to die

I really don’t

My life is empty

Emptier than my heart

I do wish to die

I don’t want to die empty

So many thoughts

Oh so, so many thoughts

I cannot banish them

But they can banish me

Into nothing

Nothing?

I am scared

Scared to admit it

Scared to show it

Scared to be scared

Why?

Why?

I can’t cry when I want to

I cry when I don’t want to

Please save me if there’s a God

Catch my tear drops

On my keyboard

Tear drops on my keyboard